Due to selling him the bike, AND being directly responsible for him being in the office that day instead of a conference with the rest of the department, I blamed myself for a week or two. I don't anymore, but still get to go see the company shrink on friday.
Big hint - don't sell a bike to a friend.
Best friend Paul and I are tooling around southern Utah, on our last day heading home to CO. I was in the lead, a car pulls out from the shoulder to do a U turn on a real sweet mountain road. I swerve into the left lane to avoid, then look in my rear view mirror. I see no headlight, only a car stopped in the middle of the road...
Paul left us quickly, while doing something he truly enjoyed. He wasn't laying in a sterile white room with monitors, and wires, and tubes, and bags, passing time until his soul decided it was time to move on. I take a certain comfort in knowing that, maybe you will too.
Would of, should of, could of.....
Rick